A love letter to Umi

Mum, I've got something to tell you.. I really want to story to you about here and I keep remember you in prayers, I Love you Umi..


Mum, whenever I rang you, I'm always wanted to cried with my heart is sheding on tears and my eyes looked like crystal overflow with tears. By hearing your voice always make a heartthrob to me but I'm trying hard in holding up my voice so you won't hear that I'm crying inside. I'm trying my best too.. living a life here so that you won't worry on me. Mum.. I miss you so much..

Mum, I still remember that you always nag on me, that I must study hard and have the best job. Sometimes I rebel in heart against what you said, but I'll just follow on what you asked me to do. I've always silent my mouth. At that time, I've always questioned on myself.. Why me? I felt burden was on me all the time.. But as time goes by, now I know the truly purpose mum.. You know what is best for me and you know your children better more than others and even me, myself..

I remember mum, during Amad was sick and he had not been diagnosed yet, Allah grant his long life and showed the determination through you mum. You quickly wants to send him to the hospital because you know that he was not okay, you such a tough woman mum.. Even after he's been diagnosed to G6PD, you keep your emotional stable, your feelings calm.. I remembered that I'm crying so badly until Amad questioned you why did I cried? I feels like a heart break. That time I didn't see you cried mum.. But I know it from your eyes, they tell me everything.. It's because I'm late.. To me, you always be my Super Woman..

Mum, you always told me about your childhood stories, sometimes I cried and sometimes I don't. You and dad are trying good enough to keep your children have a really best condition so that I'm able to achieve my dream, mum.. Both of you were trying so hard in your child time but it was differ from us mum. A lot of difference. To not be like you, be more than you.. That's what you said.. But no matter how it seems, I've always want to be just like you.. The way you are.. You can do everything even though you couldn't reach your ambition.. And to you mum, I'm doing my best to achieve your dreams, To see your children are all successful in the future.

Thanks mum.. For nagging me whenever I have bad results, scolding me whenever I was wrong, to not pamper me on easily-getting-things, to always love me.. It's true that about a sentence that~ I always known that you love me all the time, but I will not know how much mum.. Truthfully, it's infinity right Umi?

I LOVE YOU UMI, you are my ONE in A MILLION.. I miss you so much Umi (T.T)

Umi and Abah, both of you are always in my mind and definitely always in my prayers.
Thank you Allah, Alhamdulillah...
Thanks Umi, Thanks Abah..